Friday, July 14, 2006
below is a reply specially to a very good friend of mine =Dit goes...message EXTRACTION FROM X's DIARY
(cried and cried)
i remembered that ONE time u called me, and thats the only time i heard ur voice.
u were asking me something about computer, and i didnt know how to answer so i hung up very quickly.
thinking about it now, i seriouslty regretted what i've done.
every now and then when we're in the same school, i will rush out of the class whenever i can.
i still remembered u were punished by ur class teacher to stand outside my class.
i was so shocked and lied to the tcher i needed to go toilet to just see how u are doing.
i know i was foolish and stubborn.
i would go to my locker without even taking any books. so that i could see u while u are refilling ur bottle.
i know im like an idiot here.
during Graduation day, i felt so sad that i cried, i knew i'll never see u again.
i went home and was happy that u were at the school gate that moment, playing soccer.
at least, i can catch a glimpse of u before we all go on our separate ways.
i never heard ur voice other than the one telephone call.
and u never call my name, other than playing runescape.
u kept asking me what * likes and all.
without thinking how i will feel.
but in whatsoever case, i gave u all the info abt * that i could. and i tried to gather more info for u.
i cried while doing this.
'cause i felt very hurt.
it's been quite a while, like almost 2 years. and all i see you is once in half a year.
i know that's pretty saddening, but i can never meet u up.
i remembered u smsed me saying u wanted to chat with me.
but i was out the whole day and didnt see ur msg.
and then replied u late.
then u never replied again. i cried for 2 days for that. and i tried sms-ing u again.
but i guess u've changed ur number.
i felt so like the world's falling apart for me. i thought one day, i could die of missing you.
that time when u said u saw me outside my school. i was elated. but i did not see u.
and then i saw u some day later, and i know u saw me, but u went looked away.
but when u are gone, disappeared, i felt ike killing myself 'cause i felt i lost u.
today, i see u again. and it's... twice. although it last for less than 2 seconds, im contented.
but, i hate myself for the messy hair after sch, and messy shirt and messy books on my hand.
i wish i could see u again with my neat hair and neat clothing.
but im still, very very very very happy.
at least, i know u're still alive and living happily.
here, i wish u all the best with ur true love.
reply----dun cry or frown from himcos he wont feel sad or somethingbut wad you can do is to feel happy for himcos at least you can still see him from far awayget over him and you will b able to see that there are more things in the worldthat are worth ur love..jus think of those three and six..they will stay with you forever .and i will nvr forget you okay! =Dcos our darlings are siblings and twins. you seehaha!it hurts to love and it hurts to leaveppl love for being happy and ppl leave for being happy tooso since you find no happiness in loving. so jus leave jus say a goodbye and goodluck cos you noe it's impossible to say hi.cheer up !
7:45 PM
